Wednesday, January 25, 2012

listing my hereness.

If I post in truth right now, it might be depressing. I tend to post during the blues, asking the keyboard to pull me into the yellows. So perhaps a list to limit the damage I might make in the world?
  1. I really, really loved the muppet movie. One of few movies I could watch over and over again.
  2. I want people to burst into song in my own reality.
  3. Maybe if I imagine people singing around me it will become reality.
  4. I talk too much in class.
  5. Did you know I'm working two jobs?
  6. I'm also going to school full time.
  7. Oh, and I'm attempting to retain the parenting.
  8. However you should note that I've given up on cleaning and cooking.
  9. Hoarders here I come!
  10. This was fine until I learned my pay for this semester teaching one class online, 9 students (7 of whom are graduate level). Let's just say I cannot bring myself to calculate the actual hourly pay as it might break me into a thousand tiny pieces.
  11. It's hard to find funding as a non-nurse in a nursing program.
  12. Motivation is hard to come by.
  13. Funding, grants, publishing, presentations are all non-required stressors because they are implied requirements outside of work and homework.
  14. Diet Coke isn't the motivator it once was.
  15. Neither are doughnuts.
  16. I love it when Ellis says, "What the heck in the mud?"
  17. Millie made me toast as my pre-birthday breakfast. It was good toast with peanut butter on top.
  18. I want to crawl into bed and stay there for a week.
  19. I don't want anymore requirements.
  20. Michel Foucault can be so inspiring and so hard to grasp at the same time. And applying his thoughts to the dichotomy between the sciences and humanities in the way that is right and correct is leaving knots in my brain.
  21. Mornings stink.
  22. So do showers, until I'm actually in one.
  23. Dear Facebook users - why do you post things that are completely offensive to me?
  24. Dear Me - why can't you ever reply honestly to these posts?
  25. Reading that back makes it seem like I'm offended by like R rated stuff. or whatever. Maybe I am. But people I know don't really go to there. I'm talking about politics and opinions.
  26. I recommend Mindy Kahling's book.
  27. How do I have time to read this?
  28. You are right - I don't. (Please see #12, 14, and 15 above)
  29. Clin claims that Fantastic Sam's is perfectly acceptable for a major haircut.
  30. I claim only for men, children, and trims.
  31. He says it is just as good as the Paul Mitchell School.
  32. Is that true?
  33. The Secret Garden pretty much rocks
  34. but is impossible to read to a 4 year old
  35. and only partially impossible with the 6 year old.

Of course there must be lots of Magic in the world....but people don't know what it is like or how to make it. Perhaps the beginning is just to say nice things are going to happen until you make them happen.
~ The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett ~


Liz said...

Hang in there. :)

You could always avoid FB if the politicalness gets too much...(as it usually does) I know *shudder* the thought...(!) but we're 2 years FB free! :O

Mrs.O'C said...

You are amazing, Jackie. No doubt about it!

sherry carpet said...

i'm not sure this was intended to make me laugh (i.e. spit on my keyboard), but it did, only because i know that it will end and you will be glad you saw those bright spots even when it was all really hard. that's what i predict, anyway. i never knew you to do anything but succeed, succeed, succeed, excel. and so you will now too. my favorite was #32.

you're just the best.

AmyMak said...

Love your blog. Always.

Clin A. Eaton said...

I will defend my love of Fantastic Sam's to the end. THEY ARE LISCENSED! The school is not! The same person cutting your hair at the school will work at Fantastic Sam's when they graduate. You can go tomorrow. i have a coupon.

GrannyLanny said...

Glad you haven't totally given up on your blog. Sounds like it's time for a vacation--you've been doing too much for too long.

You might want to ask Nate about his experience with Fantastic Sam--the haircut before his mission when the receptionist took big chunks out of his hair. (He still tipped)

Jacks said...

So nice to know people still read this little relic of mine:)

SC - I'm glad you laughed! I didn't have an intent but to purge. And laughter is always the best reaction.

Thanks for the words of encouragement -- I'll let you know if I ever try Fantastic Sams...

Misha said...

Jackie, you always astound me! You have so many abilities and the gumption (does anybody still know this word, it just came to my mind!) to do so many things. Thanks for the post, I have missed them. :) Take care and know many people are thinking of you!

Emmy said...

It's nice to catch up a bit with family....I just read Nate and Erica's blogs (needed to find out all the medical details...).
Anway...I need to give you guys a call soon. Hope you're feeling more in the yellow and red!