listing my hereness.

If I post in truth right now, it might be depressing. I tend to post during the blues, asking the keyboard to pull me into the yellows. So perhaps a list to limit the damage I might make in the world?

1. I really, really loved the muppet movie. One of few movies I could watch over and over again.
2. I want people to burst into song in my own reality.
3. Maybe if I imagine people singing around me it will become reality.
4. I talk too much in class.
5. Did you know I'm working two jobs?
6. I'm also going to school full time.
7. Oh, and I'm attempting to retain the parenting.
8. However you should note that I've given up on cleaning and cooking.
9. Hoarders here I come!
10. This was fine until I learned my pay for this semester teaching one class online, 9 students (7 of whom are graduate level). Let's just say I cannot bring myself to calculate the actual hourly pay as it might break me into a thousand tiny pieces.
11. It's hard to find funding as a non-nurse in a nursing program.
12. Motivation is hard to come by.
13. Funding, grants, publishing, presentations are all non-required stressors because they are implied requirements outside of work and homework.
14. Diet Coke isn't the motivator it once was.
15. Neither are doughnuts.
16. I love it when Ellis says, "What the heck in the mud?"
17. Millie made me toast as my pre-birthday breakfast. It was good toast with peanut butter on top.
18. I want to crawl into bed and stay there for a week.
19. I don't want anymore requirements.
20. Michel Foucault can be so inspiring and so hard to grasp at the same time. And applying his thoughts to the dichotomy between the sciences and humanities in the way that is right and correct is leaving knots in my brain.
21. Mornings stink.
22. So do showers, until I'm actually in one.
23. Dear Facebook users - why do you post things that are completely offensive to me?
24. Dear Me - why can't you ever reply honestly to these posts?
25. Reading that back makes it seem like I'm offended by like R rated stuff. or whatever. Maybe I am. But people I know don't really go to there. I'm talking about politics and opinions.
26. I recommend Mindy Kahling's book.
27. How do I have time to read this?
28. You are right - I don't. (Please see #12, 14, and 15 above)
29. Clin claims that Fantastic Sam's is perfectly acceptable for a major haircut.
30. I claim only for men, children, and trims.
31. He says it is just as good as the Paul Mitchell School.
32. Is that true?
33. The Secret Garden pretty much rocks
34. but is impossible to read to a 4 year old
35. and only partially impossible with the 6 year old.

Of course there must be lots of Magic in the world....but people don't know what it is like or how to make it. Perhaps the beginning is just to say nice things are going to happen until you make them happen.
~ The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett ~