Friday, August 8, 2008

December 15, 1989.

I kept a journal off and on from age 7 (1984) through high school. In an attempt to reminisce...understand myself....okay to come to terms with the 31 year old me, the following is a randomly chosen entry.

12/15/89 (Please remember I was 12)

It's 12:13. I just got back from babysitting for the Fuccilo's. Boring! I'm going to be tired tomorrow! At least I don't have school for 2 more weeks!! Christmas vacation. Today at school Kelly just walked away from me while I was asking her a question! So I'm supposed to be mad at her, but I'm not. She just thinks I am.

Today at the dance Bobby* didn't ask me to dance! In fact nobody asked me to dance!!! 2 people asked Jen, 1 person asked Kelly, and 1 person asked Wendy! They all said No! I wanted to ask Bobby but I was scared that he would say no, and then he would know I liked him and I would see him at school and church and feel more embarrased!! He could also have wanted to say no, but danced with me feeling sorry for me!

I wanted to ask him he say yes and mean it or I wanted him to ask me or I want my friends to ask If he will dance with me and if he likes me!!!


*Names have been changed to keep embarrassment to a minimum.


Liz said...

OK....At 12...who was it? I'm dyin' to know...??? Who was in your ward? I can't even remember anymore???!! Brent? Ben? Richard? Aaron? Danny? (eww) There's got to be more to this cliffhanger...!! ;0)

Soooo funny tho! I don't DARE read to you from MY journal at 12-14...way too dramatic! And traumatizingly embarassing NOW...But FYI...I did save EVERY SINGLE LETTER I ever got from guys that I liked at one point in time or the other. :)

Jacks said...

How do you remember all of these boys? I tend to forget. We were a bit boy crazy, huh?

So do you let your husband read all your guy letters and journals? How does he feel about that?

Sherry Carpet said...

nice dodge, jax, but i think liz may be on to you with one of those guesses. except...danny? i only wish i knew. i love these entries.

Kyle said...

If I remeber correctly, from reading your journal when I was 10, Bobby was Jared Stilwell, no?

Jacks said...

Kyle - you are so, so off. But keep guessing!!!

Arianne said...

This is hilarious. I want to read your whole journal!

kelly riding said...

Jacks, was I really that mean?!?!
Embarrassing. I do remember saying no to a boy at a dance...hmmm...who did you like back then? My guess is Brent? Or Richard?

Jacks said...

Kelly- you're so funny. Can't you see? I was the one being petty. I was the mean one. And you are totally off on your guesses. But I liked everyone at one time or you'll be right.